It was between the ages of 9-10 that I was first exposed to pornography.
Never did I think at 23 I would still be struggling with the secret sin of lust and pornography. But here I am.
I was raised in a wonderful Christian home. I couldn’t be more thankful for my upbringing. However, because I was raised in the church all my life, I learned the great big lie that has secretly been choking out Christians and Churches alike.
This lie is still embedded deeply in my mind. And it’s dangerous.
Because church is for the healthy -> you either don’t go if you’re sick (in the midst of struggling with sin) or you pretend you are healthy when you’re struggling.
This breeds secrecy. And in secrecy sin flourishes.
We have been tricked into believing a lie that silences us when what would help most is to call for help.
I encourage you. Read that quote again. Please.
If you struggle with pornography, whether male or female, you need to know:
You are not alone
I felt, for so long, that my secret sin of porn was so unusual, so peculiar that I couldn’t tell anyone. Just pretend.
What would they say if they knew? Could anyone really love me if they knew who I really was? These thoughts plagued me constantly.
This created a layer of shame I am still trying to break through.
There is a truth that counteracts the great lie identified earlier, one I am still trying to adopt for myself. Once understood and practiced, it will begin the healing process!
This may seem a little too extreme or generalized, but it is not.
Romans 3:23 – For all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God
Romans 3:10 – As it is written: “There is no one righteous, not even one;”
Clearly, we can see there is no “hierarchy”. No one is better. We are all in the same boat. We are all sinners.
Once we realize this, it frees us to be honest and open with others.
When we bring our sin in to the light – healing can begin.
We cannot isolate. We cannot keep putting on a mask and pretending everything is fine. We must come forward and say “I am not okay. I need help.”
Listen, we cannot buy into the lie that everyone around us is healthy. No one is.
When you are willing to come forward, you’ll be surprised by how many people will follow.
Church is not where “all the healthy people go” – Church should be a place where we go when we need healing.
I want you to know – you are fully known and fully loved.
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Blessings to all,
-A Christian Porn Addict